Month: October 2019

When life gives you lemons…

Words to live by.

Have you heard that saying? Of course you have. I’ve heard it too and I understood the message ,but it didn’t really sink in until today. Backtrack to earlier today…I got my feelings hurt and was feeling sorry for myself. I was standing at the start line of the USO half marathon/5k by myself. I couldn’t muster any feelings except sadness and anger. Not a great way to begin a race. And God gave me two signs right after that, and I was so wrapped up in my pathetic pity party I didn’t recognize it until after Mass tonight. The priest in his homily said(and I’m paraphrasing)…”the one leper out of ten who was healed thanked Jesus…he showed gratitude while the other nine took the gift of healing for granted…their hearts were hardened…”. How could I have not seen his gift(s) this morning? My heart was hardened and I showed no gratitude. What is the matter with me?! I have so much to be thankful for! I have been too self centered, which is making me negative and turning loved ones and friends away from me.

So I am doing something that I should’ve done. I want to turn away from being self centered to showing gratitude…

  • I am thankful for my husband. He stands by me no matter what. “…5 kids? Okay honey, run a marathon? Okay I’ll train with you…” The list goes on. Everyday I take him for granted. He is the best thing that’s happened to me.
  • I am thankful for all my boys even when they drive me crazy! I am blessed to be their mom.
  • I am thankful for my family. They put up with me at my worst and I hope I give them my best.
  • I am thankful for my job as a teacher. I am not perfect but I continue to learn everyday.
  • I am thankful for my first grade class. They make me laugh and sometimes cry but they are my kids and their triumphs are my triumphs even when they move on.
  • I am thankful for my BRF’s. I miss them. I feel like our connection has been lost. I don’t know why. But I love them.
  • I am thankful for the running community relationships I’ve made via social media. I’ve learned so much. They have always been welcoming.
  • I am thankful for my local running community whether at school or weekend training. I have been lucky enough to make lasting friendships and hopefully a difference in a small way.
  • I am thankful for my pups who love me unconditionally. And I love them back.
  • I am thankful to God for sparing Aaron during that accident. It could’ve been worse. It is truly a miracle.
  • And I’m thankful to God for putting Val and Ardis in my path this morning when I was feeling low. They helped me recognize that I have so much to be grateful for. Thank you my friends.

I am at peace and ready for a fresh start with eyes wide open.

Beautiful Saturday sunset

Remember it’s not about the destination it’s about the journey,

Mercedes